RPM

Did my first RPM class in 4 years yesterday:
7 tracks
speed
load load load and up!
speed up!
hover!
load! load! load! load!
It.....nearly......killed.......me......

Very informative wan!

Hehe.. I ripped this off my friend's. Of course, it's information you cannot live without

If you yelled for 8 years, 7 months and 6 days you would have produced enough sound energy to heat one cup of coffee.
(All that effort for a cuppa? Go to Starbucks la! unless you are kiamsiap..)

If you farted consistently for 6 years and 9 months, enough gas is produced to create the energy of an atomic bomb.
(Wah! If we get 26 million Malaysians to do that at one go, we'll be an umm.. ATOMIC Superpower! Fuyoh! Malaysia boleh!)

The human heart creates enough pressure when it pumps out to the body to squirt blood 30 feet.
(Can you imagine how high it goes when someone has high blood pressure?)

A pig's orgasm lasts 30 minutes.
(No wonder I have never seen a depressed pig..)

A cockroach will live nine days without its head before it starves to death.
(Is it the head that rolls around or the headless body that crawls for those 9 days?)

Banging your head against a wall uses 150 calories a hour.
(A new one for the Sliming centers! Join us and emerge like a vegetable with slimmer body )

The male praying mantis cannot copulate while its head is attached to its body. The female initiates sex by ripping the male's head off.
(And you men complain about us human females.. sheesh..)

The flea can jump 350 times its body length. It's like a human jumping the length of a football field.
(Big f*#king deal. Superman can also what..)

The catfish has over 27,000 taste buds.
(So what? Not like he can eat anything tasty down there. Wasted talent. )

Some lions mate over 50 times a day.
(The pig is far superior. Mr lion has to actually put out and exert. Mr pig can just roll over and spasm in ecstacy for 30 mins)

Butterflies taste with their feet.
(o.....k...... what do they taste? flowers? leaves? bark? again, a wasted talent)

The strongest muscle in the body is the tongue.
(I wonder why god made this the strongest muscle "blink blink")

Right-handed people live, on average, nine years longer than left-handed people.
(So if you have a friend of the same age who is left handed, after he dies, you KNOW there is a BIG chance you are going in 9 years time.)

Elephants are the only animals that cannot jump.
(And thank god for that!)

A cat's urine glows under a black light.
(What's a black light?)

An ostrich's eye is bigger than its brain.
(I have a friend whose pupil is bigger than his brain. Does that count?)

Starfish have no brains.
(Again, this is not unique to starfish. Many humans are brainless too.)

Polar bears are left-handed.
(Poor polar bears who live 9 years shorter than care bears)

Humans and dolphins are the only species that have sex for pleasure.
(Hmm.. thats because they have not learnt the art of the pigs)

I AM BACK!!

I am back at the gym! After 4 years, from when I was a regular 5 days a week gym-ite, body pump enthusiast to a hardly budged once a week blob, I am back!
Decided to join the new Celebrity Fitness at Bangsar Village due to its strategic location. I am so out of shape I can wear a total of 3 pants in my wardrobe. I have gone up 1 1/2 dress size in 4 years and my arms are flabby. Actually... everything wobbles (Arrggh..) Therefore, I have made up my mind to go back to a AT LEAST 4 times a week at the gym, with a workout that includes weights, cardio, body pump and the dreaded but effective RPM.

I went last night. And yes, I still know my way around a gym, around the machines. Outfitted in a t-shirt (a true sign of an out of shape body) gym pants, a new pair of Adidas, i-pod and my old harbinger gloves, I did 30mins of cardio and 30 mins of triceps and leg work. Man, it really hurt... But man... it feels so good to workout again. I have forgotten how I used to love just taking some time to myself just working out. The true test will be in the next few weeks where I would have to push myself to be entusiastic, not be laz, no excuses and just go.
Here's to being healthier, a better body and stamina!

Elvis vs Enzo

Name: Enzo Kenji Chan

Born: January 3, 2007 (Capricorn, Year of the Dog)

Interest: Eating, sleeping, scratching, making funny faces.

Name: Elvis Aron Presley
Born:January 8, 1935 (Capricorn, Year of the Dog)

Interest: Eating, sleeping, singing, karate

Happiness and Sadness

The Golden Oink Oink.




Another Lunar New Year is here and this time, its a little different because it's also Enzo's first CNY. It's also a little different because I cant celebrate it with J. As bittersweet as it all is, I am determined to make it a great and positive year for me. Being surrounded by family, love and a godson has been a strange ride for me. I can't help but feel deep loneliness, pride in my self, love and a determination to be ok, be wonderful, be positive. My wish for this year is to just to end each day with gusto, love and acomplishment. In the meantime, the top 3 things I did this CNy is:

1) Blackjack
2) Eat
3) Sleep

Ah Jo..

Last night I made the choice to see J perform in his opening night. It was not an easy decision to make as we have not seen each other since the break-up. Although I have been handling things pretty well and moving forward, I feared how my heart would take seeing him again. But I so wanted to support him and see him in this play. It means just as much to me that he does well as it does to him. I do not know why I feel this way, but I do. I guess it just shows me how much I still love him. I was proud of him last night. I was and am proud of his drive, depite his inner conversations, to pursue his dreams and passion. He was wonderful

When our eyes met when he came out after the performance, I felt a surge of emotions and I fought to control back the tears. It was heartbreaking and yet wonderful. It was painful and yet comforting. I always feel at home with J and I guess I'll always will. We came togther again so easily as friends and two people who care for each other it was almost cruel. It made me think though, how life is full of uncertainties and tests. Here is one person, I truly love and respect. A person I can totally be myself with and yet, the relationship cannot be. Only I know the depth of how much I love this person and therefore my willingness to set him free. My friend F said, "Its funny how you and J are so good togther and enjoy each other's company and yet you are not, and me and my hubby are so wrong for each other, and tolerate each other's company only and yet we are married."

Maybe its timing, maybe its fate. Maybe we will come to certain realisations one day. Maybe not. If its meant to be, it will. In the meantime, I do not hope because hope will kill my spirit bit by bit. I know, I just have to let things be, move forward in my life and let the chips fall as they may.

V Day, Love and Knights

courtesy of nataliedee

Well. V-Day or the alternative, the aptly named SAD day (Single Awareness Day) came and went with a revelation. Amongst all the hullabulla about love, hand-holding, cards and flowers I found myself hanging out at The Laundry with a few people checking out the scene. The laundry was having a singles night and bit by bit, large groups of single women and men dressed in their best and came and played hand brushing, eye gazing opportunity silly games. Frankly, I was quite bored. Not at the idea of a singles night but the idea of a singles night at a club/bar. Boring. Meaningless. Someone should do the Desperate and Dateless Ball like they do in Melbourne. It will be more apt I think. Not a usual celebrator of V-Day itself I found myself in the company of someone who was a self-proclaimed cynic of couple-dom and love. "I can't help but think, whenever I see a couple, that they better enjoy themselves while it lasts." he proclaimed. I dont know if I feel the same way though.

hahaha. Yeah right!

Although recently out of a great relationship and feeling a bit less than wonderful at this point in time, I guess I should be upset and a little jaded when it comes to love and relationships but what's funny is, I dont. I STILL do believe in love. I refuse to allow myself to be a cynic about it. Life is about choices and I can choose my beliefs. And I believe in LOVE. I just think that if I let myself be jaded and cynical, I might and will close myself off and end up bitter and crummy. And hell, I dont want to be crummy in this life. So, therefore choose love. While there maybe an absence of a manly love at the moment, the following still rings true:

I love my family and they love me.
I love my little Enzo and he loves me.
I love SOME of my friends and they love me.
I love Heroes and 24 and they love me.

M and I were talking the other day about a guy we both know, who at age 36, still prowls the clubs every week, hooking up with meaningless sex and has in his mind the "ideal" girlfirend- Beautiful beyond believe, tall, athletic, lips like Angelina Jolie, intelligent, mixed parentage, blah blah blah. A dream girl. The kinda girl you would dream of when you were a teenager of dating and that you will grow out off when reality bites. Well, he never grew out of it or grew up. Therefore, he has difficulty meeting this "girl". Those of us who have grown up realise that there is no such thing as the perfect person. A girl should realise there is no knight in shining armour. There maybe a knight, but he may come with a tarnished breastplate. So dont discard the possibility of someone just because he may have crooked teeth.
I'd better remind myself that...hee hee

My Angel, Enzo

I am now a godmother to a beautiful little boy- Enzo Kenji Chan. His K-Ma. Son of my brother Ivan and his wife, Ramjeet. The joy he brings to our lives and the way I feel about him are amazing. In my eyes, he is absolutely perfect. Well, of course that because he is my godson. We just celebrated his full moon and I can't wait to see how this new member of the human race will grow, see life and have all his dreams fulfilled. For Enzo to be here, at a time in my life where I am vulnerable and emotionally weakened, is a blessing.
Ok I can't stop gushing... :)


Check out Enzo's Crib for daily updates on him!

Post mortem

"Life is full of challenges" someone said. Yeah, no shit.. Sherlock..

It has been a beautiful, heart-wrenching, self-doubting, joyous 3 and a half years. Here I am, once again at the crossroads of life. Once again having to come face to face about how I, Maybel, perform and see myself under emotionally difficult circumstances. Do I hold on to the memories? Should I be angry? How long does it take to overcome the sadness? Can I just make a choice to be positive and move forward, and I already am? Can I get over it? Was it all worth it?

When someone is dissatisfied, they look for reasons to validate why they feel that way. When something ends, people look to fault and blame. I am not interested in he said, she said. I am not here to fault and blame. I dont care who ended it. It just cheapens the years we spent together and makes it superficial when I have to answer those questions. I do not believe in just throwing away friendship just because "we" did not work out. It just was not meant to be at this point in time. He needs to "find" himself and come to certain realisations on his own. To make his own stand. Me? What did I learn from this? How can I now move forward? The lessons are loud and clear. Never forget myself. Never forget how important I am. Don't give myself completely over. Communicate and ask the important questions. Give myself and the other person the space to grow. Don't be afraid of losing someone.

No, I am not the strongest person emotionally. I cry easily and am emotionally sensitive. I can choose to be depressed for a year and hope for a reconciliation. I can feel lonely and afraid for my future. But I choose not to be. Sure it hurts like hell. Sure I feel like a train has ran over my heart again and again. Sure, I look over the pictures and cry and see the memories in my head and silently weep. But I am still here. Would I do it all over again knowing the outcome? Knowing I will have this heartbreak? Knowing we will be great great friends one day, yes. Knowing all the wonderful friends we made together, yes. Knowing that I have met,loved and will always love a special human being, yes. Remembering all the wonderful and painful intimate experiences that I have shared with this person, yes. Most definately.
It may be a bumpy and difficult start but I look forward to the new journey!

Thank you babe for allowing me to be in your space for the last 3 1/2 years....

I recommend getting your heart trampled on to anyone
I recommend walking around naked in your living room
Swallow it down (what a jagged little pill)
It feels so good (swimming in your stomach)
Wait until the dust settles

I recommend biting off more than you can chew to anyone
I certainly do I recommend sticking your foot in your mouth at anytime
Feel free Throw it down (the caution blocks you from the wind)
Hold it up (to the rays)
You wait and see when the smoke clears

You live you learn
You love you learn
You cry you learn
You lose you learn
You bleed you learn
You scream you learn